If I was a character in Achewood, Ray would say I was going through some circumstance.

I'm having trouble finding peace with the PRAXIS issue. I try to be understanding, but after all the hoops and three years of successful teaching under my belt I am waiting three more weeks to find out if I got three lousy points on some lousy test to see if life can continue as I know it. It is just dumb. I have never in three years of teaching been offered even one criticism on an observation. Every time another person has come in to watch me teach I have had all above-average or excellent reviews and never one suggestion for improvement, ever. I'm a great teacher, but the PRAXIS says the school system should fire me.

I just can't wrap my brain around the situation, and I am spending every day just trying to get through the day. I just want to survive the day and get home. The pressure has, in effect, made me a worse teacher in the past 3 months than I have ever been.